Hi Everyone, I've been thinking over things that have happened in my life which have made me want to be a wife watcher. I don't think it's any one experience that changed me and I may have just been born like this but I think this one event is the thing that had the most affect on me.
I got with my first serious girlfriend when she was 18 and I was 22. We dated for about 6 months before we started having sex and I have lots of good memories of our times together. Looking back I was still emotionally immature, and although I wasn't horrible I could be a bit of a dick sometimes and I think she tired of my attitude by the end.
The end came when I dumped her, the reason I dumped her was because I became friends with another girl who used to flirt with me and I thought she wanted to get with me, she didn't of course. It wasn't long before I realized I'd made a massive mistake but there was no way she was going to get back with me. She relished the opportunity of being single and started seeing other guys straight away.
We still kept in touch, obviously I was still in love with her so I'd try to see her whenever I could. I should mention that we were living a distance apart at the time, she was on her university year out placement so was a 4 hour drive away from me. One weekend I drove down to see her, we would talk and I'd tell her how unhappy I was, she didn't have much sympathy to be honest and just told me I should find someone else.
She told me about a guy she was seeing at the time, she was quite blase in the way she spoke. From her point of view our break up was one of the best things that could have happened, she said how she didn't feel stress anymore like when we were together. Whereas our relationship had been a formal bf/gf one this guy was a lot more casual. He was in his early 30s and was someone she had met at her work placement. During our chats she would mention bits about her sex life which I could piece together to get the fuller picture. She said how when she was with this guy she would act a bit moody and bitchy to create sexual tension, they would then have rough sex afterwards, he would order her into positions, hold her down and slap her bottom, things like that. Hearing this really hurt me, she had asked me to be rougher when we were together but I couldn't bring myself to do it, I didn't like the idea of hurting her.
She lived in a shared house with 3 other people our age, when I visited we would both hang out in her bedroom but if I stayed over I had to sleep on the sofa. One day we were in her room when she got a text message, she looked at it and put the phone down. I asked her who it was and she said how it was the guy she was seeing and he was asking if she wanted to go over, but she said its ok she wouldn't go. In what can only be described as a moment of madness I said how that was fine and she should go, I'll even give her a lift. She just looked at me and said "really?" I said yes it was fine so she said OK without anymore hesitation. Looking back it seems ridiculous that I would do that but I think my reason was that I wanted to appear cool and helpful in some sort of useless attempt to win her back.
So we got in my car and she directed me to where he lived but she made me park round the corner, she then got out of the car and I watched her walk away. It was then that it dawned on me what a stupid thing I'd just done, it was definitely my all time low point. It was about a couple of hours before she came back, she got in the car looking flushed and I drove her back. I tried to ask her about it but she wouldn't tell me anything and said it was private. When we got back to her house I sat downstairs making polite conversation to her friends while she went and had a shower. She came back downstairs and we had a bite to eat and then it was time for me to get my bag and leave. I went up to her room to fetch it and it was while in there that I noticed her knickers on the floor where she'd let them drop when she was undressing, I could see that they had his cum in them. That came as quite a shock to me, I was upset at the thought of him slapping her bottom and disrespecting her but the thought of him ejaculating inside of her was on another level.
On my drive home I decided that I'd hit rock bottom and I stopped having contact with her after that, looking back now that I'm older though, I actually think I was lucky and it was one of the most erotic things that's ever happened to me.
FUCK MY WIFE!